Thursday, April 27, 2006

All I Have to Do is Swing

I've been doing something with Mallow each weekend for the past month or so and things seem to be going pretty well. Unfortunatly it's only the weekends and so that's five or six days where we hardly even have a real conversation.

What it all really melts down to is that I still have the same problem I've always had, I'm not aggressive. It's not in my nature. Up to a certain level I'm as aggressive as any other normal guy, but then all of the sudden my confidence runs out and she's left waiting for me to fall flat on my face.

Too often I wait till it feels just right, for everything to flow together like the tributes to a great river, but I'm beginning to wonder if it actually works that way.

Mallow moves back home in a week or so and I've got a long way to go befor I'm going to feel like I can do anything about us, so I'd better get crackin'.