Dirty Little Secret

Things with Tom have gone in the completely opposit direction from where I'd expected them to go. In fact pretty much everything has gone in the completely opposit direction from where I'd expected them to go.

My date with Mallow went very well. Now my schedule and her's won't seem to match up for me to ask her out on a second date. Harmony is being chased by so many guys that even if I were able to get some time with her she'd be too distracted to really BE there with me. I'll be much better off just waiting till the summer when she's not so busy with work, school, other guys, and everything else that life throws at her. ALBC doesn't seem to be as interested as she once was.

As for Tom. We've been spending a lot of time together and even though I might not be looking for a relationship, she is. I'm not opposed to the idea, it simply not something that I'm really looking for right now.

So let me pose a question. If I don't hope for a relationship, don't try for a relationship, don't plan on having a relationship, but still end up in one, does that mean I'm settling?

Ok, now here is a controversial question. She's not the kind of girl I want to marry. She doesn't have any bad attributes, but she lacks some of the attributes that I highly value. Thus it's pretty easy to say that this relationship wouldn't last. Most likely it would end when she goes off to Chicago for the summer, if not sooner. (Which would free me up to have another go with Harmony.) Even knowing that the realationship is going to end, should I still be willing to give it a try? Would it make a difference if she also viewed this relationship as having an inevitable end?